Sitting Shiva. Shiva: A week long mourning period in the Jewish tradition after a death. I'm sitting Shiva. Or I'm in time out. Or having a nervous breakdown. Or all three. It's been 30 days since I returned home. Home to a different life than I left with. It's been 30 days of a 90 day forced time out. It's been 30 of some of the hardest days of my life. But this Shiva is different. I am mourning my own death. The death of me in a life I used to have and a death of a